Guilt

Guilt is the scariest of all feelings. It may even be scarier than death itself because it has the guts to make you wish for your death. It puts you to shame every single time you come across the person whom you have done wrong and makes you feel heinous about yourself, and all that you want to do at that moment is to make a quick escape to some another dimension.

However, guilt only comes when you are ashamed of yourself and when you feel sorry at heart for the person who is hurt. Shamelessness does not bring guilt; in fact, it repels it. It is very hard to make all this understand to someone who is hurt because he is hurt; and that is one enough reason for that person to not listen to any explanation that you might have to offer.

But above all, what actually matters is how you feel about yourself after committing some wrongdoing. Everyone and especially the one whom you have hurt will tell you how cheap and shitty you are; and once guilt starts eating up your soul, you will feel that you are a disgrace to yourself. But trust me that you are not. You feel guilty because you are good at heart and because you did not do, what you did, intentionally. And you are good since you feel sorry and you wish that you may go back in time and undo the things. Also, you are good as you want to make an apology and set things straight for once and all.

I have done things, in not too distant past, that do not make me particularly proud of myself. I am rude and blunt, and I do not give a second thought before doing or saying something that might offend someone. And I do all this right at the face of that very person and thus, I end up hurting them and becoming bad for that person, and sometimes also for the spectators.

But all this does not really make me as bad as I, myself or others might think I am. I know that I am good because I have accepted my mistake. I am good because I never took it too personally when I was offended by people and let it go in good faith. I am good than many of the shameless people who do not give a damn about what they have done. And, I may also be good than the person himself whom I have offended because I feel guilty for my actions and he is still holding a grudge against me.

Guilt is the symbol for the truth of your conscience. So, know that you are as good as you always were, no matter what, and sleep well at night.

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