Notes of an Overthinker

“At the innermost core of all loneliness, there is a deep and a powerful yearning for union with one’s lost self.” – Brandon Francis Year 2014. After the board exams were over in March, I had decided that I would drop the year to prepare for the one of the toughest entrance exams for the most prestigious and aspired institute of the country – the JEE for the IIT. To realise this dream, I went to Delhi, again one of the most happening places in the country. However, even after months of preparation, I failed to achieve my goal; and whatever be the reasons for it I have no regrets. I will never say that I wasted my one year. And that is because, it would not be true if I said so; it is because that year gave me so much time – free time; lonely time; time to think. A little time for yourself is all you need to recollect and reset your life. A little time is what you need to know where you want to be and where you are heading in life. I got this little time in abundance and this ...

हम जिसे प्यार समझ बैठे हैं, वो आखिर है क्या? Small pecks on the cheek; looking deeply into each other's eyes; those moments of PDA in the coffee shops and hostel mess; or holding of hands in the shopping mall. Is it all love? Maybe it is too inspiring an effect of the Bollywood, or maybe something that happens too naturally at this age. Whatever it maybe, but it is surely not love. I am certain that it not love because love does not break every six months and because moving forward after a real breakup in not as easy as Yo Yo Honey Singh says. You do not ask your friends to hook up someone with you or to fix a meeting with someone in order to find your soul mate and you certainly do not propose someone only after five minutes of meeting them. You do it only because a girl round your arms compliments your ‘cool boy’ image and because that walking with a boy makes other girls jealous. You want to have a boyfriend or a girlfriend simply because everyone has one; you want t...

"What is this strange thing that I call myself?" This is what Kahlil Gibran quoted in his book of short writings, 'Sands and Foams'; and this is what I have been asking myself and searching for an answer. I have found that people, when they are all alone with me, are at peace. They share their darkest secrets with me. They tell me their life stories, speak about their crushes and loves, their achievements and also the regrets they have in life. People sometimes just talk to me for hours and pour out their hearts to me. They speak things they have never spoken to anyone, tell me their desires and ambitions and share their dreams with me. The important thing to notice is that they do all this very comfortably and willingly, on their own accord. They do not seem to have the slightest hesitation in sharing their lives with me. They somehow, and I don't know why, place full trust and faith in me. Who am I? Nothing more than a plain simple homo sapien. I am not ...

The social networking has gained momentum in our country from around 5 years ago and is a great hit among the masses. Almost everyone is a part of it. But, I believe, it never remained true to its motto. It never lived upto its real expectations. At least, so is the case in India, as far as my knowledge is concerned. I strongly feel that we people are great at diplomacy. We use something as it best suits us and not as per its purpose of use. Mostly, we tend to use a strong tool from its destructive end. The case with the social media is no different. The ill-effects of misusing the social sites have already started to come up. I am not talking about cyber scams and scandals but a change in the general mindset of the people. We are observing a drastic decline in the quality of thoughts, language and general attitude of the society. The worst affected are the children in the early teens. The young, fresh, innocent and clean minds are hampered the most. The social media, in the way it...

Situations are the moulding forces of our lives. We live as per the situations; we grow with the situations. Sometimes, we change them, but mostly it is the time and situation that has the guts to change a person. We all are submissive towards the situations and there is nothing to be ashamed of in bowing down before them or adjusting with them. It is totally natural. Many times, we find people telling someone, "If I were you, then I would have..." kind of statements. These are nothing but complete lies. The truth is that if you were in someone else's shoes you would have done exactly the same as the other person had done. In that situation you would have not been yourself but that very person. You would be moulded by the situation and then made the same decisions as the other person. Moving along with the situations and adjusting to the them quietly is not coward but a wise decision to make, if you cannot change them. Moreover, doing so is completely human.

We have always heard that life is a cyclic process; that there are ups and downs, one after the other in life. The downs are usually referred to as the dark phase of one's life or what we sometimes call the hard times. Everyone faces them, and everyone comes out of them too. But the struggle we make to overcome those challenges; we keep them to ourselves. We do not speak them out loud for no particular reason. Hence, everyone feels that he or she has worked the hardest or struggled the maximum to enjoy this happiness today. This increases the self-respect of people and they live a life of dignity, but sometimes this self-respect increases enormously without a reason and makes them egoistic. These struggles are something to share with people whom you are close to. when you do this, you come to know that the person infront has worked equally or more harder that you to achieve his or her current position. The awareness toward this fact changes your high self-respect into a mutual...

I love cloudy mornings. In fact, morning has its own beauty when the sun rises but the day does not. It feels as if the time has come to a stand still; It looks as if the clock is ticking but not moving. A quiet stroll on the streets on one such morning, with only the hue of blurred sunshine, all by yourself brings you closer to your inner being. And a road ride is beyond happiness; it is joyous. (By the way, I had one today morning) Today was this perfect morning in Delhi. A beautiful morning in a beautiful city. P.S. You need to wake up early for these experiences. :P